Thursday, January 26, 2006

My take on James Frey on Oprah today

OHH The rush, Chester Bennington and Linkin Park set the stage for my rant to Mr. Frey!
Linkin Park Reanimation...

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As a member of a recovery community, I want to first ask Mr. Frey if he is "truely" clean and sober or are you just DRY? Because as was mentioned by one of the panelists today, the first step in recovery is about TRUTH and HONESTY! I do not think you were very "truthful" were you Mr. Frey?

Did they teach you to LIE and Deceive at Hazelden? You do not paint a very nice picture of the community of people who are in recovery and you surely do not present yourself as a rock of faith that anyone should hold on to if they are trying to clean up thier lives.

"HOLD ON...." What a crock of SHIT !!

1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, drugs, smack, whatever, and our lives became unmanageable.

You know when I attend a speaker meeting for my own recovery, I want to hear how someone made it out of the darkness and got clean and sober. Our stories are similar and different in the same vein. We started using - we got out of control - we did a number of stupid things - got caught - went to jail (for some of you) - then we got real and started the journey into recovery. In as many years in the program, I can tell a bullshitter at about 50 paces and five minutes into his or her share. You know I can just tell an bullshit story from a real one.

A Million Little Pieces, was a real collection of "sensational" bullshit and impossible stories. Even someone who is not in recovery would stop and ask, "Did that or could that really happen?" There were just some really "way out there" parts to your story. I just don't know how you could sleep at night or live with yourself after knowing that you misled all of us so badly.

What does that say about all of us in recovery? That we are all liars and that we all tell sensational stories to make ourselves look better or bigger than life real? That no one should trust another person in recovery who writes a book, because you really lowered the bar on truth, I must say. Not to mention the fact that every single memoir that comes out now will first make its way through the fires of fact checking at The Smoking Gun and some really good vetting procedures.

How can I publish my memoirs now and not think first, that someone is going to scrutinize my story beyond the gates of truth and no one is going to want to read another memoir written by a man in recovery, well I got one thing on you, I am HIV positive, so there's where my story departs from yours. I don't think one can truthfully LIE about having AIDS.

Mr. Frey, do you understand the
concept of the
"Law of Return?"

We call that
KARMA!


And you know, whatever you send out to the universe comes back to you ten fold in the form you sent it out in, and today your karmic payback returned on you! You duped the Queen of daytime television. I think Oprah did a good job at searing your ass in front of millions of people

LIVE - LIVE!!

You LIED !!
Just admit it, YOU LIED !!


Another thing that bothers me, is that you had no regard for the people you wrote about who died. Poor Lilly is rolling in her grave, for the truth that she slit her wrist was far better a death than HANGING herself, not that I condone suicide, I do not. Suicide is a cop out from the responsibility of living. Now, all those people who knew the truth and her family for that matter have to retell and relive that story for ever and ever amen because of your outrageous claims. And you know that Lilly's blood is on your hands. You gave her a gruesome death, and you have to live with that. I really do not envy the position you are in today or the one you will be in when you die.

All those characters that you embellished and changed from the truth, do you think you will ever have to answer to them in the future? Will you ever have to make amends to them for what you wrote? Will you ever face the truth about the lies you told and really get sober?? Your conscience must be locked away in some vault in your head, because I don't think I could live with that kind of torment and not want to drink or use or worse, kill myself... I just don't understand you.

How could you go to Hazelden and get clean and sober and leave a rehab and go into the world as the man you are and after some time clean and sober like you have stated, write a book called your "memoirs," and chock it FULL OF LIES? I am sure that rehab is/was not very happy with you or the reputation that you have since given them. Who would ever trust the process at any Hazelden Recovery Center? My god, you've done some serious damage to the recovery system in the United States haven't you Mr. Frey.

What are "we" the community of people in recovery supposed to look up to in you? There is nothing noble or courageous about your story. You are just another junkie on the road to recovery, you've been knocked off your pedistle of pride and recovery and now you stand here on the ground even with all of us junkies, and IF you are smart you will haul your ass into a meeting and sit down, shut up, and listen for a while, and maybe you will see that HAD you found a power greater than yourself, you would not have written this "Million Little Lies" and found yourself on the scolding end of the sofa sitting across from a very upset and embarrased Oprah.

I watched the show, and it was painful to watch your emasculation live on TV. To see a woman that I look up to for so many things, to have to admit what she did and to regret something that she had done for you because she believed in you. DO YOU KNOW how many boys and girls and men and women would give their eye teeth to sit where you sat and receive the praise and kind words and recommendation of Oprah Winfrey? AND you LIED to her in front of the world.

I just cannot imagine that I would want to see the rest of my day through without using after a beating like the one you got on international television. I just did NOT believe, for one second, the story about the dentists office, and I had pity for Lilly. So many prayers must have been offered for her soul after reading your story. And you her an injustice by inflating and invalidating her death. I really feel sorry for you. After today, I can just imagine the shame you are feeling, oh, that's if you understand the concept of shame?

Just think of all the people who got caught in your web of deceit who art just "holding on" in their hours of need - in the throws of addiction, to find out that you are one really BIG Bullshit Artist. I hope you know that their lives and their blood is ON your HANDS, should they fall out and go back out or far worse, end up dead, because they put their stock in you, only to find out that you are a really big Charlatain and FAKE!!

I have never gone to jail, like you have, not even for two hours, but I wonder, who would want to inflate a jail or prison sentance? I would think that one would want to get out as fast as possible and end the drama quicker. Did that "embellishment" make you a really bad boy, did you think you'd reach the junkie punk who has faced a jail cell? Did your skirmishes with the police make you seem like one "itty bitty bad ass" in front of the junkie punk boy groupies or the hard timers who have been inside the walls because of their using? Only a priveleged white boy who knows nothing about being bad, would write such shit. What a drama!! Did writing shit like that really inflate your sense of EGO and are you proud of that?

God I just don't know how you can live with yourself? What is so courageous about your story? That you haven't used -since the last time you- used? There's alot of -dry time- in between the last day you used and today's public emasculation. Maybe some serious time in a rehabilitation center working on your steps would do you some good right about now.

Don't drink or use, find a sponsor, go to a meeting and work your steps...


You did us a disservice by your dishonesty.

You do not speak for me or for us.

I hope that Oprah went back stage and took out her best "switch" and beat your ass clear across Chicago. What you did to her is unconscionable. What you did to the community of the people in recovery (like myself and many others) is unforgivable. I do feel sorry for you. But like the good book says, we must forgive seventy times seven, we should love the sinner and hate the sin, and like any good junkie knows, recovery is about the process, the journey and the ways we get honest and realize that only the TRUTH will set us free from the demons and past days inside the demon of addiction. So You come to Montreal, and I will take you to a really great meeting. I hope that one day you find the real meaning of sobriety and being clean for yourself.

Getting clean and sober means that you face the past and you heal. The lies get turfed out and the truth shall set you free.


Did you hear that
"The TRUTH shall set you free!!"


You know, we are all human and make mistakes, because of either our ignorance or misunderstanding or lack of knowledge or stupidity. You wrote a book, and your parents cheered you on, in front of Oprah and on Larry King. YOU made HUGE mistakes and you sat on them and let them fester and the lies got infected and got out of control and what happened, TODAY happened. You paid the price for your lies on INTERNATIONAL television in front of a live studio audience and us out here. Yes, I live in Canada, and was saw the show this afternoon.

The Karmic Circle goes round and round.

Those who do not learn their lessons are destined to repeat their mistakes until they do.

The 12 STEPS of Alcoholics Anonymous

1. Admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn and our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people whereever possible except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, prompty admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood him, praying only for the knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having HAD a spiritual awakening as THE result of these steps we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

I shall pray for you Mr. Frey.

One day you will get clean and sober for real, if you don't kill yourself after today!

ok Rant over...

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