Sunday, January 08, 2006

Jack, I swear...

Like one of my friends has said, Brokeback Mountain is not a "gay" movie. We just got back from the 10:05 showing, and I am still trying to process what I am feeling. If there is one movie you should see this year, it is "Brokeback Mountain." The views of the mountains are stunning, the cinematography is just amazing. Canada is a stunning country to film in.

The story is gritty and driven by pure emotion. "No one has to know what goes on out here..." Truer words were never spoken. I think that if you have ever felt unrequited love before, or had an emotional connection with anyone in your life, you will find commonality with both Jack and Ennis Del Mar.
It reminds me of a time in my life where I had relationships with friends like that, where there were no labels, just pure unadulterated love between two people.

And that is how I see it. If "Gay" was never brought up, what is so wrong with two people loving each other, and being together. Yet over that 20 year period, Jack and Ennis had to find time to "be together" and that was tearing Jack apart. I felt his pain, I cried when he cried, and I cried for Ennis too. To love and not be able to do anything about it. It was painful to watch at times.

"there are no reigns on this one..."

It struck me "who" chose to make the first move, and then "what" happened afterwards. I just felt so moved by these two men and the story, this short story written by Annie Proulx, and directed by Ang Lee. I think he did an amazing job with this story. The characters have depth and emotion. I don't think the religious fundamentals have a leg to stand on. I think that everyone should see this movie, and I think that a great many "straight" men will find commonality within the characters of Jack and Ennis. It's not about nudity or sex.

It's about the meaning of "relationships" and why they are so important to whom we will become in our lives. It's about the pain knowing that something exists between two people and both were powerless to do anything about it, except find time in between their lives and families.

That's the damning power of the "secret!"

At some point in all of our lives we have had a relationship with someone where "love did not speak its name!" I am so sure of this truth that I would stake my life on it. If "Gay" was not such a negative stereotype, maybe many people could have had what they wanted, instead of doing what they did. I know what Ennis was feeling waiting on that first visit, waiting by the window smoking like a chimney drinking up a storm, and then finally Jack shows up, and what happens is just a gut reaction, as if it was unplanned and fresh. I mean it was so raw and visible on both of their faces. I think Michelle Williams was stunning, her character was so emotionally torn.

Jack wanted the life he wished for, and Ennis was visibly consumed with fear, it was palpable. It is such a shame that in today's world we still stereotype men and label them, and we exclude and separate them from our lives, families and communities. It is such a shame to know that so many young people will be forced into homogenized heterosexual lives to make their parents happy and live "right and straight heterosexual lives to get into heaven and be accepted in churches for fear of reprisals of God and ones parents."

What a FUCKING shame... that much of the world still lives in the God Damned stone age.
If you can understand what true love is, and if you know what utter fear is, and you know what the pain of utter loss is, you won't get wrapped up in the "gay or straight" label of the characters, because this isn't a gay movie, it is about the love between two men over a 20 year period and the lengths they went to - to see each other and spend time together, sadly we see what that "sneaking around" did to Jack and Ennis and their families.

God I need another tissue now!

We take for granted, the life we live, in the cities that we live in, in the country that we live in, in the world we populate. In Canada we are afforded rights and privelges that not many other countries have right now. And I should be thankful and greatful for the life I have and the ability I have to love the one I am with and to know that I don't have to hide in a mountain pass riding a horse, herding sheep, although that does seem really nice about now.

The world is not kind to us faggots and queers, and surely in the 60's and 70's things were not that easy either, nor was it easier in the 80's. "Gay" was the word not spoken, the love that remained unrequited and silent. The world is not kind in the 21st century either.

Brokeback Mountain is a experience of humbling love.

I won't spoil the movie either, suffice to say, if you haven't gone to see it, then do so, but be warned, tissues are a requirement. Don't shut yourself off from seeing a fantastic film. I encourage you to experience this beautiful movie for yourself. And I promise you that you will never look at another gay man the same ever again, and more to the point, I don't think you will look at yourself the same again either.

I think that Heath Ledger will walk away with a little Gold Statue as the Best Actor in a film role this year at the Oscar's Ceremony. Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger did us very proud in this film. I stellar performance by both. Every stereotype you have in your head of the "gay" man will forever be transformed after you see this film. I was brought to my knees watching these two men battle with the fact of unadulterated and unique love between two individuals. I just don't know what else to say, except I may have to return to the theatre for a second view.

I am just besides myself emotionally. What an incredible film this was.
To know that so many men in my past battled with the love that dare not speak its name, I wonder just how many men out there are scared to see this film for fear that it will bring up something from their past, if only for a little while, they can see it for what it was. I wonder how many men, loved another man, and then walked back into the world with a secret in their closets, never to see the light of day?

Well done Jake and Heath... Well done.

I am borrowing this from Obliquity because it is so fresh in my head...

“The shirt seemed heavy until he saw there was another shirt inside it, the sleeves carefully worked down inside Jack’s sleeves. It was his own plaid shirt, lost, he’d thought, long ago in some damn laundry, his dirty shirt, the pocket ripped, buttons missing, stolen by Jack and hidden here inside Jack’s own shirt, the pair like two skins, one inside the other, two in one. He pressed his face into the fabric and breathed in slowly through his mouth and nose, hoping for the faintest smoke and mountain sage and salty sweet stink of Jack but there was no real scent, only the memory of it, the imagined power of Brokeback Mountain of which nothing was left but what he held in his hands.”—Ms. Annie Proulx

Gay is just a label, Love is to the death...

I am humbled and amazed...

"Jack, I swear..."


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